As we move towards year’s end, I tend to reflect on the time past. A year ago fear and doubt lurked in my heart about 2013. How was I to finish the high school? Where was I to get the money to complete what God has started? Why was I doubting God’s promise given to me in Isaiah 45:1-3 that He will open doors, level the mountains, break down the city gates and give me the treasures of darkness, riches stored in secret places?

Why was I trying to predict the outcomes when Jesus wants us to leave the outcomes to Him? He should be our guide while we enjoy life in His presence and keep our focus on Him. And yet, I kept on looking to my troubles, and doubt and fear and anger set in as I forgot the promise God gave me 15 years ago in Zechariah 4:6, the one verse that weaves like a golden thread through my life, our school and company “…Not by might, nor by power, but by My Spirit, says the Lord Almighty – you will succeed because of My Spirit, though you are few and weak.”

The decision was mine—was I going to be led by the Spirit of God or led by a spirit of fear? Os Hillman says that fear prevents us from entering into what God has promised for each of us. He says that we cannot be led by fear, reason and analysis, or even skill. The Spirit of God must lead you. David Jeremiah says that sometimes we set barriers on our lives because we won’t believe great things. Doubt creeps into the hearts of those who should be walking in faith and trusting God for His provision. There will always be confrontation with unbelief for anyone willing to do great things for God.

And as I look back, my confrontation with unbelief was totally unfounded. God provided in unexpected ways – as He promised. People from far and wide came and supported our project; the last call for support came even last night! Every month I was encouraged by people giving to God’s vision: to make a difference in deaf education. The proof is the high school that will be finished this month; it’s a testimony of God’s grace in my life. Had you said last year when I doubted, “people will come and give millions of Rands to you in the months to follow,” I would have laughed and asked what you were smoking! And yet, God promised, and God provided. See for yourself what God has done—see the last 8 classrooms below and the student centre below that. The projected completion before Christmas 2013. God is indeed faithful!

I would like to thank you for reading my blog the past year. A special word of thanks to everyone who commented on my blog – each comment is read and much appreciated. Thank you! –Nico