If you are old enough, you will remember exactly where you were during the moon landing in 1969. I was in Germany, watching this major event unfold on a small black and white TV screen in a hostel lounge. We were the last South African swimming team to participate internationally before sport sanctions were fully imposed.
Little did I know that two years later tragedy would strike our family, and yet, as I look back over the past 50 years, I only see God’s grace, love and guidance poured out over us right up to this day.
Then why am I so angry? Someone once said that anger is like a flashing red light on the dashboard of your car, indicating that something is wrong. Smashing the red light with a hammer won’t take care of the problem – something under the hood is amiss. Something is seriously wrong.
I can only conclude that this anger is due to unmet expectations. What expectations? you might ask. You seem to have everything your heart desires?
I expected so much from our president and his new cabinet.
I expected that by now those guilty of fraud and corruption would be behind bars.
I am frustrated that after spending hours in meetings teaching and discussing various salient points with staff, expecting that all would be on the same page, they default back to their old and trusted ways.
I expected that my rehabilitation after my accident would progress so much faster – even though professionals say I am in too much of a hurry, and that the progress to date is remarkable.
I expected that the high standards of excellence our family has strived for over the past 45 years would by now be part of the DNA of every staff member.
I expected Anita to be fully healed by now – after years of prayer.
On the one hand, business often determines that we move at a pace that can put incredible stresses upon people and relationships … including me, my family and top management (Os Hillman). On the other hand, God’s Word says, “Blessed are all they that WAIT for Him.” (Isaiah 30:18)
And as I saw the red light flashing on my dashboard, I needed to do some serious introspection … and the Holy Spirit reminded me of His Word…
“…when you are angry you give a mighty foothold to the devil … don’t use bad language. Say only what is good and helpful to those you are talking to, and what will give them a blessing … stop being mean, bad-tempered and angry. Quarrelling, harsh words and dislike of others should have no place in your lives. Instead, be kind to each other, tender-hearted, forgiving one another, just as God has forgiven you because you belong to Christ.” (Ephesians 4:27-32)
And then, as I thanked God for the numerous blessings in my life, I also had to confess my sin of thinking God is not in control … and slowly the destructive anger flowed from my body. I was reminded of God’s promises He gave me over the years during my quiet times…
“Fear not, you will no longer live in shame … the shame of your youth and the sorrows … will be remembered no more.” (Isaiah 54:4)
“Not by might, nor by power, but by my Spirit, says the Lord Almighty – you will succeed because of my Spirit, though you are few and weak.” (Zechariah 4:6)
“I know you well; you aren’t strong, but you have tried to obey and have not denied My name. Therefore I have opened a door to you that no man can shut.” (Revelation 3:8)
“Don’t be impatient. Wait for the Lord, and He will come and save you! Be brave, stout-hearted and courageous. Yes, wait and He will help you.” (Psalm 27:14)
All I need to do now is to wait on the Lord and trust. Not wait inactively, but in prayer, and He will open my eyes to see Him at work. The time to PRAY and TRUST is now, more than ever, and then, while we wait, our strength will lie in quietness and confidence in our Lord Jesus.
On a personal note – thank you for your responses and emails. These are much appreciated and a great encouragement to continue walking the road less travelled.
Thanks Nico….awesome always so encouraging…….he who dwells in the secret place of the most high shall abide in the shadow of the Almighty….He will deliver you from the snare of the fowler and from perilous pestilence….. a 1000 may fall at your side 10000 at your right hand but it shall not come near you_x000D_
The Lord is our only Hope and we need to move from deep to deep in our relationship with Him ……seeking His Presense and renewing our mind with the Word Of God
Thank you for being honest about your frustrations Nico. It further made me think again about what expectations I should have if I am a citizen of God’s Kingdom…Live love! Deon
Hi Nico, thank you so much.. I had to hear this message this morning! _x000D_
With love and gratitude _x000D_
Ons opdrag is om vir mekaar te bid en lieft te hê en nie te oordeel nie. _x000D_
Eks 14: 14 Bly julle maar net kalm. Die Here sal vir julle veg.!!_x000D_
Ek bid dat jy net die kalmte wat alle verstand te bowe gaan sal ervaar en sal sien hoe die Here vir jou veg op alle vlakke._x000D_
Soos altyd bid ek die Here se seën oor jou en jou familie. Die Here wat seën leef in jou en Hy is getrou.
Goeie dag Nico_x000D_
Na twee jaar voel ek gelukkig maar nog steeds soos ‘n vreemdeling. Ek en Elize doen ons werk en niemand weet van ons bestaan nie._x000D_
Daar is ‘n vrede in my hart wat ek nie in woorde kan beskryf nie._x000D_
Dan luister ek na jou en ek dank die Vader vir die groot geskenk van “contentment” _x000D_
Ek dink nie ‘n hoë profiel werk is meer vir my nie, die hoeveelheid druk wat jy elke dag dra en ervaar. Ek verstaan die rooilig wat bly flikker jou stuur tot aksie en ek het groot respek vir die feit dat jy weet om soms stil te staan en net te wag is die beste ding vir jou en jou toekoms._x000D_
God is inderdaad getrou en ek bid dat elke woord wat jy in Sy naam spreek vir jou tot werklikheid sal kom._x000D_
Dankie dat jy ons ‘n blik in jou eie gees wys. Dis maklik om te oordeel en te besluit waarom iemand optree soos hy optree, maar in die tussen tyd ken jy nie sy siel, kop of begeertes nie._x000D_
Dankie vir die brief wat vir ons almal ‘n groot inspirasie is._x000D_