It’s 02:30 in the morning and I am tossing and turning in my bed. I am thinking of the multitude of projects, challenges and problems in front of me. I decide to get up and seek God’s face. How I need a Map and a Guide!!! Actually, I want to get out from under this unbearable pressure. I feel like giving up, after all I can’t go on like this forever! Why not quit now while the going’s good? Should I not listen to the multitude of voices asking “When are you going to take it easy?”
I start praying … Lord, please help me! Help me to persevere. Help me to keep my eyes on You! Lord please help me with wisdom, insight and understanding… and one by one I start laying my problems at His feet. God likes us to be honest, so I just poured out my heart.
I then opened the Bible and my eyes fell on Isaiah 30:15 “Only in returning to Me and waiting for Me will you be saved; in quietness and confidence is your strength…”
I see a piece I underlined in Oswald Chambers some time ago: ‘Don’t give up because the pain is intense right now. Get on with it and before long you will find that you have A NEW VISION and a NEW PURPOSE!’
I read from Spurgeon where he says that uninterrupted prosperity is a thing to cause fear and trembling and in 1 Peter 1:7 I read that “These trials are only to test your faith, to see whether or not it is strong and pure.” The footnote says that trials teach us patience, build character and help us grow to be the kind of people God wants us to be.
Lord, how much character building can I still take?
Again I look at what I underlined in Jesus Calling where it says ‘Trust Me enough to let things happen without striving to predict or control them! RELAX and REFRESH yourself in the light of My everlasting love….. stop striving to be self-sufficient – learn to rely on Me in EVERY situation.’ Interesting … not quite what I wanted to hear.
I then read from Oswald Chambers ‘Stop following the system of the world…where work insists upon endless energy and activities, but no private life with God! What is important is a personal relationship with Jesus, not public usefulness to others. Spend your time getting rooted and grounded in Jesus!’
Matthew 7:7 comes to mind …”Ask and you will receive…” but not always as we think. Lord help! Lord give! Lord guide! … and God says RELAX. REFRESH yourself in my presence. DEPEND on ME! TRUST ME and learn to rely on ME in every situation.
Then we will cast away all fear of the future and be like trees along a river bank bearing luscious fruit each season without fail. Our leaves will never wither, and all we do shall prosper (Ps 1:3). Come my friend, join me in trusting the ONE, who alone can be trusted, and we will be refreshed in His company with a new vision and a new purpose!